I need a routine!
I need HELP!!!
I hate admitting that I can't do all this on my own. I feel like I am drowning in an ocean of responsibilities and tasks that I should know instinctively how to do with no life-jacket, raft, or rescue party coming for me. No one even knows I'm drowning so they aren't gonna look for me yet! I hate asking for help!
I've decided to dog paddle to shore. Shore is my goal. The place in life where I know I want to be! It's gonna be a long swim but I know I can do it. I have to do it...I have no choice! I know I'm going to go under the water every once in a while. I know at some point I'm going to want to give up and sink to the bottom of the ocean but that isn't an option. I have enough determination and will power to do what I should be doing.
I started with Zoey and Zane! I have (regrettfully) allowed them to sleep on the couch and watch TV all night long up until now. I am happy to say that last night was night number 3 of them sleeping in their beds. Zane sleeps all night in his and Zoey with get up and come snuggle with David and I in the middle of the night and then decide on her own to go back to her "big girl bed"!
Also, on my list of things to accomplish this week is cleaning the house for my jewelry party! I am doing well and pacing myself so as not to over do it. The last thing I want to do is break my water or go into labor early. I have a list of things that my "shore" includes and I can't wait to get to shore.
I have asked the Lord to help me. I want to be a good mom, wife, and house keeper! I am working hard and I am determined to figure this out.
My reasons to be a better person, mom, and wife...
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